It’s been eight year since Mackenzie Phillips revealed that she had once been in a long-term incestuous relationship with her own father, but she has now told the public that her admission tore apart her family.
As PEOPLE reports, the former One Day at a Time star wrote in her very first book, High on Arrival, that her father, The Mamas & the Papas singer John Phillips, had started raping her once she turned 19.
At the time of the initial sexual assault, Phillips had been so high on drugs and alcohol that she wasn’t in the right state of mind to stand up to her father.
Over time, however, the twisted sexual relationship between Phillips and her father became consensual and incestuous—it lasted for 10 years.
Now, in her new book, Hopeful Healing: Essays on Managing Recovery and Surviving Addiction, Phillips claims many of her family members have essentially disowned her and refuse to forgive her for exposing her famous father.
In fact, Phillips claims she was at one point disinvited to a family member’s birthday party.
“Another family member was angered that I might attend, and I was told she was just not willing to forgive me yet. She wouldn’t forgive me! For abuses perpetrated against me as a child, or for exposing those abuses perhaps,” she writes in her new book.
Because she has little support from her family, Phillips, who was once heavily addicted to drugs, relies on her counselor to help her through her struggles.
“I’ve come to understand that some in my family have chosen to hold on to the pain and anger they felt when I came out with the truth about my dad,” she said. “I understand that they’re still caught in a textbook response of devaluing the victim and holding up the perpetrator.”
“I’ve also had to accept that, of course, I’d be the target of negative reactions and feelings because I’m the one who wrote the book and told a truth no one wanted to hear. If you’re trying to maintain some sort of façade so you can avoid pain, the last thing you want is for the façade to be demolished,” she continued.
Back in 2009, when Phillips debuted her first book, several family members spoke out against her—many even accused her of lying about the incestuous relationship she had with her father.
“Am I exceedingly joyful that my family secret that I told maybe my therapist, my husband and my very best friend in the whole word [is now public]? No,” Phillip’s half-sister, Chynna, told Oprah Winfrey on an episode of The Oprah Winfrey Show.
“I understand Mackenzie’s need to come clean with a history she feels will help others, but it’s devastating to have the world watch as we try and mend broken fences, especially when the man in question isn’t here to defend himself,” another of Phillip’s half-sisters, Bijou, also said in a statement.